Confessions of a Makeup Hoarder

Do you need help with organization, hoarding is nothing to be taken lightly. But a lot of people have those tendencies. It’s easy for it to get out of control as you accumulate stuff. I was on a kick buying Makeup for a while. I would just get a new thing because I had misplaced or didn’t have that with me at that very moment. It ended up just filling my bathroom with stuff when I finally got it all in one place, in the beginning it was all over so I couldn’t see the massiveness of it.

Step 1 Look at Mess

When I finally got organized to have it all in one place, I felt so disappointed in myself as I viewed the many duplicate items. And how much money I had spent on the same thing. It still sits in my bathroom right now, yes, I use a few items still. But it’s like so much and as you know makeup has a shelf life and also no one wants used makeup to buy, yuck!

Step 2 Look at Behavior

So, it was a misuse of my time and my money. I would have an anxiety thing when I would go to work in morning and have no makeup on because I had to run out the door. So, I would get so anxious that I would run to the drug store and get something like maybe it was a lipstick or an eyebrow darkener, or that one thing I needed, it was always that one thing, I just need this to make me look good or just that one thing and I will be confident. Just that one thing and I will feel okay.

And it did at the time when I got it I would feel a relief, for the day but then the next morning or a couple of days later I would be “missing” something again. I realized at a certain point; I was missing something inside. Not that one thing. So, I began to look and at first it was hard and hurt. Then I began to think, what makes me beautiful, is there such a need to put on this complete face? This shield? I’m in my forties so I have a lot of bad feelings about not being young anymore that I had to come to grips with.

Step 3 Get Comfortable in your own Skin

I have discovered the fun part about makeup and watch it on YouTube its relaxing and fun and calming to watch. And FREE.

Also, I went into what I like to wear on a normal workday it’s just mascara and a light lip gloss. Two Products and now I keep them in my car in case I leave without makeup, I leave them in exactly the same place every time.

On a day I’m Dressing Up I put on a little more like an Eyeshadow and do my brows and maybe some concealer. That I do at home.

It was a process that took inner work, not just succumbing to anxiety. You got to get in there and reverse engineer it. There is always a opposite end of the stick on one end wanted on the other not wanted, but sometimes it’s hard to see what end you have in your hand.

So, I have begun to look at my ways of being and my tendencies and am trying to do the inner work of observing behaviors, and trying to not correct per say, just get in touch of the genuine “why” first and then move on and past. You must begin with cleaning up your vibration first and focus on simple and want to feel joy about your beauty not trying to fill and cup that’s always half empty. Less is sometimes more in the way that to get that “glow ” you need to radiate it out from the inside. That does worlds more than all the makeup in the world. And when you begin to love yourself, your inner self truly, you do feel so much more comfortable in your skin.

But you really have to face the “why” and see why there is that insatiable need at certain moments to fill or make yourself feel okay and why you have anxiety around it.